I've got baby booty and I don't like it! For the first time in my life - I know I have been lucky - I am having to lose weight and it sucks!! I gained 40 lbs with my daughter which quickly fell off after she was born but the stubborn 10 lbs I never lost with my son (I went a little self-indulgent after he was born and gained more weight!!) just won't come off. I am about 20 lbs away from my goal weight.

I started Weight Watchers because I thought a little self-imposed discipline might do the trick. I lost 10 lbs quite easily but then the scale just stopped moving. I gave up and gave in and decided to go it alone. Well that didn't work! I gained 4 lbs really quickly. So now I feel like I am back at square one. I have introduced an exercise routine (even if it is just in my basement while my 9month old crawls around) I feel like I might be getting more toned but the scale still isn't budging. What's going on!!!

So I signed back up for Weight Watchers hoping that my early success repeates itself. But let me tell you Weight Watchers sucks. Every little bite I take has to be recorded. I can cheat, it's true. But I am only cheating myself so I try hard not to.Â

In all of this I can't help but wish I had the self-confidence to not care about my weight so much. To just eat healthy, whole foods and to let my body find it's natural weight (with fingers crossed that this is 20 lbs lighter than now). It is hard for me, like for many women, to not see the weight gain from pregnancy as a negative thing instead of embracing the curves, the stretch marks, as signs of the great thing my body has accomplished.

Until I achieve that zen confidence I am left wishing the pounds away. And still on Weight Watchers though I think it is not working for me. What have you done to lose weight? Are you on a similar journey?